June 10, 2021 9pm

 

June 10, 2021 Thursday Evening

Journal Entry by Heather Ruments — June 10, 2021

 I have a little news, it has been confirmed three times, by two people, so I am going with it. Yesterday, I noticed that Steve was not only alert, but was clear and was blinking a lot which I haven't seen. I grabbed his hand and asked if he could communicate with me by blinking. One long blink for yes and a quick blink for no. I asked him if he loves me and I got a big long blink ❤️. Then the dialysis team arrived and I lost the moment to ask another question. I decided I would wait and try again today. I came in today and his BP was a bit low and heart rate high, he also just had a breathing treatment and was struggling to clear his lungs with the trach n vent. By the end of my visit, I did find a moment that he seemed keyed in, so I repeated the yes and no, and asked him if he liked being in the hospital, and I got a super quick blink(no). I asked him if he liked having his feet rubbed (I was rubbing his feet and calves to help blood flow, muscles, and help with edema), and I got a long slow blink! I was then talking to Michelle, his nurse, and she had asked him a question earlier that morning and he answered with a blink! 3 confirmations! I am seeing more pockets of not only wakefulness, but now noticing times of clarity and connection. Now praying this becomes more consistent and we can move forward! 

 I was thinking about irritations and frustrations. I was in my prayer closet, my sequoia, and was singing and praying when someone's driving irritated me by how they were driving. I immediately felt like a mirror was put in front of me to see myself. You see, I had just talked to someone else about not letting the little things steal your peace/joy/focus on The Lord. BAM, I had slipped right back into it and out of my peace and time of worship. So easy to do! In Song of Songs(or Song of Solomon), it says: 

"Catch for us the foxes,

the little foxes

that ruin the vineyards,

our vineyards that are in bloom."

 

 The vineyards grow the grapes, the grapes are fruit. He is talking spiritually, so the fruit would be; peace, patience, self-control, joy, love, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness. The foxes ruin the fruit of the vine and spiritually it would be anything that brings anger, frustration, critical spirit, judgement, condemnation, self-righteousness, etc.  My little foxes this week have been; no internet, computer issues, my prayer closet breaking down(car), and things just not going in my timing. Because The Lord is gracious and merciful, I have been able to see most of these things as little foxes and I could laugh and keep my peace. That isn't always the case. When I spend more time with Jesus, I can look at these things with "Kingdom eyes". I mean with a heavenly perspective and understand that none of these things are worth my getting upset over. I know that I know so deeply and well, that no matter the "little fox", I am always secure, provided for in some way and have always come out the other side of it. We are so blessed by our Father's love for us. Sometimes I wonder how I can possibly forget all He has done and brought us through. I can't allow anything to take away the peace that I have when I have spent time with The Lord. He gives me joy even in the hard. My peace and joy are rooted in him, not in circumstance and whatever the circumstance, I trust in His ways and His timing.

 

  Huge praise, Adam is home and will be doing outpatient physical therapy! We are hoping to see them this weekend!

 

 Praise shout outs to our respiratory therapist Mekuria. He was there talking to Steve as he went to the ICU, and Steve was talking to him. How precious that nurses and therapists are telling me about their moments with Steve before he was unable to talk. Please pray for these precious brothers and sisters. All of the therapists, techs, nurses, doctors and the surgical team(who get missed because they work more in the unseen). Pray that they are blessed and encouraged in their spirit. They are all precious to me.  Continue to pray for the precious patients and their family's in beds 1-12. The Lord knows their need and their journey. Pray they are comforted, healed, filled with His peace.  Love you all, will update tomorrow. 

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• Renee Brohard : Praise the Lord for this great news, for progress and improvement for Steve and Adam and for the way the Lord is sustaining you! We continue to pray constantly! Love you!
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• lynn whittington : Heather- the “little foxes”verse is perfect for me today. Thank you ! Thrilled about blinking news!
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• Margey O'Brien : Heather, this news lifts my heart with joy! Prayers continue for you all.
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• Rob Shaw-Fuller : Wonderful news! Praise the Lord for healing and sustaining you!
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• Yvette Perri : Praising Him for all the blessings big and small. In the waiting room with you. Love you sister and continuing to pray for restored health for Steve, and patience for you as well as kingdom perspective always.
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• eileen candelaria : 💕
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• Jacquelynn Sutphin : Praising God for answering our prayers and bring Steve back to you in His own timing...and standing alongside you in the waiting. Praise also for Adam's recovery. Continuing to pray for you through these next steps.
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• Courtney Foster : Such wonderful news today! Praise God!
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• Nicole Horsch : Yes, Lord🙌🏻 Blink blink blink!!!!
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• Niki Marie Mattson : Love hearing this! We are continuing to pray for you all. 🙏❤
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