May 29, 2021 Saturday PM
Jesus is with me, I know Him, I can feel his peace and love with me. Today there was a lot of post surgery and "future" information. It has taken some processing, prayer and choices. Some might think I'm off in some lala land and not in touch with what is going on. I assure you, I am very in touch with reality. These days of waiting are so hard and it seems any little update that isn't positive or brings worry doubt and fear can throw me off. I have to work hard to put the information in an information box and separate it from the emotions that come with it. It is work to turn away from the darkness and run to my Abba Father. He said in Isaiah 43:4 "You are precious and honored in my sight, and I love you." I feel his love for me in the details of how he ministers to me. In Matthew 11:25 "Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." When I spend time thanking Him for who He is and how he blesses me it is much easier to take my eyes off what is uncertain to the one who is always dependable. He also said in 1 Chronicles 28:20 "Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Don't be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord God, my God is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you." I fall into fear often, I tell it to him, sometimes cry it to him or yell it to Him. King David sure let all his emotions out on God in the Psalms! David in this verse was transferring a mantle of his own faith journey to his son Solomon. Even though David was pursued for years as King Saul tried to kill him. He dealt with fear, frustration, the unknown, promises that hadn't come to fruition(yet), but, he stood strong and shared with his son how to overcome. It is in God's strength, and His very own courage that He fills in you as you walk with Him that blesses and gets us through. He is the waymaker in these times.
Steve's procedure was a success! He is tolerating the trach which is connected to the ventilator very well. They have already weaned down on oxygen saturation from 80% right after surgery, to 60% and they see that will continue to go down again to where he was, which was minimal oxygen help. They did notice that his pupils were not equal, so they did a CT scan which showed no change from the last. This is good because that means that there was no event happening to Steve. This is what they call evolution of stroke. Like when you get a bruise, it gets spread out before fading. We still don't know what to expect, but he is reactive on both sides of his body with stimulation and opens both eyes when I talk to him. Praise God that He knows and is working it all out. They also changed his food to support his kidneys better. They tested the peg(feeding tube) and it was perfect so they started feeing and meds. They had changed his abx a few days ago bc white blood count was up, it has decreased over the last three days. They keep telling me that in all things covid related, it takes time for it all to work out. I am thankful for God's timing and I trust that it is perfect. These amazing doctors and nurses have only had one year of covid under their belts and I praise God for all the work they do and what they have been through to be able to help Steve the way that they are now.
Please continue to keep Adam and Riley in your prayers, she will be with him tomorrow. It breaks my heart that I can't minister to her fully like I want to. I am so thankful for those who are standing in the gap, caring for my baby when I can't. Love you all, I am so thankful that you are all walking with us in this journey. The real work is in prayer, trust, loving one another, kindness when it is hard, encouraging one another, and reaching out to those out of your comfort zone. Be blessed, be a blessing. <3
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- Jeanette GrondinContinuing to pray for you all, sending my love too5/30/21
- eileen candelariaContinuing to pray for you all this evening and throughout the night.5/30/21
- Fine HeartPraying continually for you and Riley and Kaiti. Praising Jesus for sending angels to Riley and assuring her of His LOVE for her and Adam. Praising Him for Steve's baby steps! Wishing I could be with you. Love you sister!5/30/21
- eileen candelariaPraying5/30/21
- lynn whittingtonSending love and praying!5/30/21
- Nicole HorschUp and praying for all things to work together for good for you and Steve who love Him and are called according to His purpose. ❤️5/30/21
- Olawunmi FajobiLove you!!!5/29/21
- Jeannine Santo ZupoYou are such an inspiration and I love your posture of faithfulness. We are praying across the miles for each of you. I know our Deb is guiding the angels. May peace be yours today, tomorrow and always. 💛5/29/21
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